Times when everything around you slows down, and you just see things crystal clear. Whether it be a good kind of sight, or bad.
Like people around you move so swiftly, everything is in occurence and yet you feel….what’s the word? Alone.?
Or
When everything is happening, and you finally see it. With your cheeks lightly lifted, and your eyes faintly squinting, things you can’t help but be grateful for;
Both of those moments are in essence… what sums up human life.
Human life..
How hard and easy it is.
How full, or empty.
Light….. and heavy.
It’s wild isn’t it?
That we all have these moments, that we feel tuned in. To something. But we’re never too sure what that something is, until much, much later. And even then you wonder sometimes, am I even sure? Or am I convincing myself and being delusional?
These moments- for me were wholesome solitude. It would happen in sequences. When I was doing something correctly, I would see - some positive aura/energy on the top left corner of my view. It would always be the top left corner.. If I were to go chase the clouds and go to the beach, there would be some ‘extra’ light, at the top left corner of my view. As if it was calling me. And there were times that I really just wanted to walk towards it. As silly as it is.. I was like Moana, chasing that star, but for me it was just NUR; a luminiscent light, that i just can’t fold into words.
Or sometimes, it would visit me in my dreams, I would be on top of a mountain, high level, and there were high plains all equal to my level, and those plains would be filled with glass houses. Some shaped like pianos, some shaped like R’s or some even in the shape of a rectangle, standing on legs. The point is- they were beautiful.
And behind them, there would be a dark orange/pink sunset. I would be quietly standing, looking towards, but calm, and at peace..
Sometimes, it would happen in the moments..
Whether if I was surrounded by a whole bunch of friends, gathered, them all laughing, enjoying the moment, and screaming their minds off from all the fun, and for a split second which would feel like a few minutes to me- everything would slow down. All their laughter silenced, the only thing that was loud and clear- was the squint in their eyes, their cheeks lifted, and genuine happiness surrounding all of us.
Those moments, when we finally see. Change the trajectory of our life. So have those moments more, and often. Draaaag the weight of it, reflect, review, overthink, and over analyze, because those moments, are the moments that we are meant to live.
